Just because I’ve been irritated all day.. 

It irritates the crap out of me when you get me mad/pissed and than you start to sweet talk me and butter me up with all your shit? Like.. uhh really? Bi-Polar much? You really are going to try and be nice and sweet talk to me after all that shit?! WTF.

It irritates me when people act like nothing happened after a bad situation or something and you come up to me acting like ain’t nothing wrong, like it just makes me more mad and want to just cuss you out because of how stupid you are. I’m mad at you and acted like that for a reason than you going to come up to me like ain’t shit happened like wtf? were you not there, were you not paying attention at all to the situation? 

I swear bad habit of mine is I get irritated way to easily. 

So, lately my mind has just been on a roller coster of emotions and feelings that is just all over, with ups and downs, turns and twist. Which just makes it harder to even get through the day and night with all these thoughts. I literally need to always find something to do during the day to get it off my mind, which has been working out but at the end of the day there it is all coming back again but, even worse it’s night time now and I start to have trouble sleeping. 

It’s hard because when you have all this build up in you, you can’t just help but cry to ease the pain. Every other night I have to cry to just even end up sleeping and I hate it. I hate these feelings I’ve just been getting. What I don’t like is I don’t want to seem selfish or anything in any way because I know there is way more important things I need to worry and think about, but it’s just so hard not.. 

People say just for get it, don’t let it get to you. I understand how you feel, don’t worry. You shouldn’t even feel like this and etc. It’s just really hard, sometimes I don’t even like to say anything to anyone because they don’t seem to get the full understanding of how I am, how I feel, and why I’m like this so I’m just like what’s the point of even telling you, when your not even helping at all.

I basically feel like I’m just stuck because when I talk to someone I never get that support or help I know I need, I know people are there for me and are trying there best to help me because I appreciate it but the feelings are still there you know? Then when I hold it in, it’s a struggle for me because I still feel the way I feel and Im just building up more pain and emotions in.. One day I will overcome all these and truly just let everything go and not have to think about any of this since I’ve had things feelings in me for way to long now.